Thursday, August 30, 2012

mdna usa

This is from Liz Smith on the first US show of the MDNA tour two days ago.  MDNA has finally made its way to America!

"ABLE TO face fear or danger without flinching...resolute...invulnerable...valiant... venturesome." That is a portion of the dictionary definition of the word "fearless."

I DON'T know Madonna well enough (believe it or not) to assess that she is actually without fear as a woman, or a human being. In fact she has admitted to being just as, if not more, insecure, than the average person. Fame and constant scrutiny does that to a person. She is far softer and more vulnerable than her public persona suggests. I know that, for sure. But whatever she is with her children, her man, her issues, she remains without a doubt one the most fearless and true-to-herself artists in the world. Madonna kicked off the American leg of her "MDNA" tour in Philadelphia on Monday night. She was full of patriotism, praised America's freedom of speech, demanded the release of the imprisoned Russian performance artists Pussy Riot and denounced homophobia, as she has been doing for the last quarter century. (Long before Lady Gaga was telling her "little monsters" that they were "Born That Way," Madonna was exhorting her fans to "express themselves" and was in the forefront of the AIDS crisis.)

"MDNA" is what has become the standard mix for a Madonna show--mind-blowing brilliance, dazzling sets, incredible dancing. And then there's the stuff she does because she wants to! She is intent on taking her audience on a journey. Sometimes they are not ready for this journey. They want to groove on the old 1980s/90s jams, presented just as Madonna did in her famous videos. (Tough luck.) Madonna would wither and die if she had to repeat herself over and over. She is not messing with her fans, she's making sure they've grown up. Yeah, and that is despite the campy majorette outfit she wears at one point. She's not pretending time hasn't passed. She's a woman still young, still full of fun. (And wait until you see her marching band, in mid-air, elevated above the crowd!)

In "MDNA" Madonna gives her fans classics such as "Open Your Heart," "Vogue" "Express Yourself" "Human Nature" and "Like a Virgin." But, as in the case of "Like a Virgin," she has totally transformed the chirpy ode to being "shiny and new," into something almost unbearably dark. Is it pain? Is it pleasure? Is she suffering? Is she in ecstasy? Don't ask me, and don't ask Madonna. She hates to explain herself. She is far happier when the audience either makes up its own mind, or never does. Madonna considers herself a work in progress and she gives her audience the same respect. If you don't get it, don't worry. It's life. Who can explain life?

This new concert relies heavily on her latest album relies heavily on material from her latest album, "MDNA." And though the CD hasn't sold as spectacularly as her past hits, the hot (as in almost passing out from the heat), hysterical audience went mad for newer songs like her opening "Girl Gone Wild," "Revolver" and "Gang Bang." This is the much criticized "violent" section of the show, but many people thought it was less scary and more a pastiche on the cult of violence, not to mention getting some tumultuous feelings off her chest about her ex, Guy Ritchie. She performs a set piece in a tawdry hotel room, swigging whiskey and being attacked by ninja-type assassins dressed in black.It's witty. It's nasty. It's Madonna. The stage is full of movement, the sets gasp-inducing, the onscreen videos and visuals mesmerizing. (Including a gorgeous new black-and-white version of "Erotica" and the controversial "Nobody Knows," with its images of violence, political revolution around the world, and a tear-inducing tribute to gay teenagers who have killed themselves.) Madonna's voice, when she sings totally live, is effective and moving, especially on "Masterpiece."

She ain't ever gonna sing "Aida, but but she has some chops. Her moves remain a miracle of athleticism, for any age. She looks better than she has on any recent tour, keeping her weight up and appearing utterly joyful. Her enthusiasm was infectious. At one point she declared, "Sometimes it's easier to show your ass than your feelings." Naturally, at that moment, she was showing both! Madonna capped off the night by whipping her audience into a frenzy with "I'm a Sinner," "Like a Prayer" (which was so solid, beautiful sung and reverently raw that it was literally a religious experience) and the bouncy "Celebration," in which her handsome young son, Rocco, gave mom some competition in the dancing department.

If you want Madonna singing the oldies, in the same key, the same outfits, the same mindset, "MDNA" might disappoint. If you want to see a woman still fighting the good fight, trying to entertain, educate and rile up her audience, you're in for a roller-coaster ride, with Madonna herself at the controls. There is only one queen, and that's Madonna, still.

Madonna means many things to many people, some good and some not-so-good.  But for me, particularly as she gets older and faces more ageism and sexism and more detractors, Madonna means you fight.  You fight everything. You fight for your dreams, for your relevance, for your spot in the sun, for freedom, for equality, for artistic visions, for changing social conventions, for doing whatever the hell you feel like.  I like that fighting spirit.  Always have.

age of worry


Close your eyes and clone yourself
Build your heart an army
To defend your innocence
While you do everything wrong
Don't be scared to walk alone
Don't be scared to like it
There's no time that you must be home
So sleep where your darkness falls
Alive in the age of worry
Smile in the age of worry
Go wild in the age of worry
And sing Worry, why should I care?
No your fight is not within
Yours is with your timing
Dream your dreams but don't pretend
Make friends with what you are
Give your heart then change your mind
You're allowed to do it
Cause God knows it's been done to you
And somehow you got through it
Alive in the age of worry
Rage in the age of worry
Sing out in the age of worry
And sing Worry, why should I care?
Rage in the age of worry
Act your age in the age of worry
And sing Worry, get out of here!

I love this new song by John Mayer.  Worry - why should I care?

Obviously I am a worrywart by nature.  Lately the things to worry about have been piling up.  Today my Honda was vibrating violently and spewing out white smoke and the radiator and reservoir were completely empty of coolant.  Hmm - I know what that means - yup, blown head gasket!  I've been down this road before.  I swear I am not spending another penny on this car anymore.  This is it.  I ain't gonna worry about it - if the auto shop will fix it under warranty, fine.  If not, I'm just gonna find a way to get rid of it, hopefully in exchange for a few bucks.

Healthwise - it's been a hell of a week.  After the procedure on Monday, I ended up getting a pretty bad stomach ache.  I still have it.  It's a little better today.  I also have a stent inside of me.  The doc will take it out in a week; they said they needed it in there for me to heal from the procedure.  Meanwhile, sample has been sent to pathology lab for testing.  Yup.

Worry - why should I care?    

Sunday, August 26, 2012

go, go, go, ichiro!


Here is Ben Gibbard's anime-inspired tribute to former Mariner Ichiro. Ichiro is awesome.

please please please let me get what i want

Things I really really want, Fall 2012 edition:


Blur limited edition boxset, has all their cds plus bonus unreleased materials.



Bellocq tea canisters.  Screw the tea - I really want the tins.



Something from Craftsman and Wolves, a Mission district bakery - maybe The Rebel Within.



Ray Ban RB4125 - aviators in plastic. 



The Universal 100th Anniversary edition of the Atonement blu ray is coming out next Tues.  It's one of my favorite movies of all time, but for whatever reason I actually don't own it.  So this one is on pre-order from Amazon.  I cannot wait to get it so I can watch Keira and her green dress in 1080p over and over again.

Saturday, August 25, 2012

it's gonna be fine

This year so far has been sort of a bust. But then again when was the last time I had a year that wasn't (I wanna say 2006?).  I always vow to change things and then I never do.  And then it gets harder and harder as every year goes by.  It's like you are constantly fighting the roots that are growing deeper and deeper and taking a stronger hold every day you don't do something about it.  I am however a firm believer that you always have a fighting chance.  And that leaves me a glimmer of hope.  It's a fading glimmer but a glimmer nonetheless.  Besides, who doesn't love an underdog?  I am an underdog for sure.

I have a medical thingy this coming Monday.  I hope it turns out to be nothing.  They need to do surgery to figure out what the heck it is that is on that CT scan they see.  If it turns out to be something, I am just going to deal with it matter of factly.  Not gonna go all melodramatic about it.  I have a feeling though it's going to be nothing.  Yup, that's the optimist in me talking.  I think I will be fine and I will just go about my merry way (my sort of merry - it's all relative).  If I do get to go about my merry way, there are a few things I need to do before the rest of 2012 passes me by.  I am so sick of not doing things.

- MDNA concert in Oct.  I have so far refused to watch any of the tour videos, so I actually don't know how the numbers sound like or look like (other than in still photos).  All I know is she doesn't like Nazis and Russian fascists and support the Pussy Riot.  
- The Hobbit in Dec.  Life of Pi, Anna Karenina, On The Road, Django Unchained coming soon too.  Great Gatzy should have been on list but has been pushed back as a summer 2013 release - damn studios and their jockeying.
- Finish reading 1Q84.  I don't know why - but I am just having a really hard time reading these days.  I think I have ADD or something.  Like I could barely stay focused enough to finish this post.
- Write, write, write.  I actually did restart my novel, tentatively titled The Urge For Going (yes, after the Joni Mitchell song), a few weeks back.  It was a couple of inspired days, but quickly followed by the typical plague of laziness.
- Exercise and eat more vegetables and fruits.  I actually haven't been doing too badly there.  I cut my cholesterol down by 20 points and lost four pounds.  The four pounds lost though might be due to worrying about my health problem.  The yoga dvd has been getting more play lately too.
- Get more stuff done at work.  I have so much backlog it's not even funny.  Makes my stomach all queasy just thinking about work.
- More illustration.  I loved doing these and should do more.
- Build my LOTR Lego sets.  It's stupid to leave them in unopened boxes.  You should never collect things you cannot enjoy.
- Write people back more often.  I have been rather sheltered lately.  I don't tend to return phone calls or emails for days or weeks.  It's like I don't want to be bothered (and I don't want to bother other people).  But you really do want to be bothered in life.  Life is people bothering each other.  That's a good thing.
- Purge.  My room is a freaking mess right about now.  Clutter makes life feel messy and chaotic.  I buy too much and am unlikely to be able to cut back, so at the very least, my output should exceed my input. That's a good rule to go by for everything - put out more than you take in!
- Buy extended maintenance plan for BMW.
- New iPhone in September, baby!
- New seasons of Amazing Race, Revenge, Happy Ending, Modern Family, Hart Of Dixie, etc.  Yes!  Except for Cat Deeley and SYTYCD, I hate summer tv.
- Football!  Let's try this one more time.  Go Pats!
- Get meself a fit bird (that's British for hot girl) by me side.  Yeah right...

I know that this is essentially the same list going for many a year.  See, that's the point - never give up hope that you can climb those mountains, or molehills.   

I actually do have some other life goals, like finding something where I can help people.  But honestly, I don't know how to go about that.  I don't know what skills I have that are useful to other people.  I would love to be a Big Brother to some kid, but geez I think the kid would find me kinda boring.  No ball games, bad at tutoring (I did well enough in school but was hardly a learner, and I have no technique - I just went about it without much discipline or method), no game with girls, empty of real spirituality or philosophical wisdom.  I mean, all I would ever do is take the kid to LOTR movies and eat all over the city (hmm - that actually doesn't sound that bad...).

I also want to pay off my mortgage very soon and be debt-free until I buy the next house.  I think this one is realistic.  I am only a few years away from doing this, and as long as I keep my job, I should be able to buy a small second property.  It's not so much an investment thing for me - it's like I just want a backup house.  Just like I tend to buy two of the same shirt if I like the shirt.  I have backup shirts, so why not a backup house?

Anyways, that's what's going through my head this Saturday morning.  It's all going to be fine.    

Saturday, August 11, 2012

17 days of summer

Weather:  Mild
Mood: Anxious
Music: Sufjan Stevens' Greetings From Michigan
Last Movie: The Dark Knight Rises (A-)
Reading: 1Q84 (whatev...)
Last Pleasure:  The last two weeks of the Olympics
Last Worry: My lower abdominal pain
Last accomplishment:  Getting my cholesterol level down by 20 points
Looking Forward To: Trying out my new camera Canon SX260's zoom capability at Madonna concert
Not Really Looking Forward To: More medical procedures to figure out what's troubling me
Gas Price: $4.33/gallon premium
Clothes: Land's End navy polo buttoned up (my tendency lately), Old Navy lightweight blue hoodie
Today's Headline: Mitt Romney Introduces Paul Ryan As His VP Running Mate
Current iPad Wallpaper: 17 Days of Summer
Last Website Visited:  boingboing.net
Last Meal: Bistro 10 UN
Last Purchase: Timex Weekender Slip Through Watch - Orange (I love these watches - I have two so far and plan to buy more bands)
Item Off My Wishlist:  Good health
Latest Evidence It's A Beautiful World:  Oscar Pistorius my favorite London 2012 Olympian 

Sunday, August 5, 2012

mark rises

I've been absent for a while, just like Bruce Wayne.  I have some medical issues that have been bugging me.  I have more doc appointments this coming week. While I was away, it seems a storm of chaos has taken over the world...For example, K-Stew cheated on R-Patz.  How could you?  For God's sake, you rescued a puppy together.  And R-Patz is the most charming, self-deprecating, unassuming sparkly vampire ever.  You screwed up big time.  Now go bite your lips harder til it bleeds for all the hurt you've caused the Twilight nation...Jackson kids rebel against their cray-cray uncles and aunts.  Paris Jackson tweets that Grandmother Katherine Jackson has gone missing.  Paris and Janet Jackson have a shoving confrontation caught on the family property security camera (which somehow was released to the press).  Oh boy, Paris, Prince, and Blanket need to get the hell out of that family.  I spot a Lindsay Lohan ending to this story...Madonna's Paris club gig at L'Olympia ended with near riot.   Initially the press was reporting that the fans were angry with Madonna for doing an abbreviated show, but as it turns out, there were Marie Le Pen plants in the audience who came prepared to cause trouble. Them Nazis are such troublemakers...India experienced black outs which affected a population equal to that of the entire U.S. and Canada.  Can you imagine if the entire North America had a power outage?  That's all kinds of freaky...Over half of the U.S. has been declared to be in a drought state.  And seemingly everywhere (but here in San Francisco) is going through an endless heatwave...As I am writing this, I am getting alerts on my phone about a Sikh temple shooting in Wisconsin that left seven people dead...This brings me to the Dark Knight Rises massacre in Aurora, Colorado.  It is horrific and inexplicable.  But then again all massacres are.  You just have to attribute it to a mad man whose screws came very loose.  It's a hard world we live in, and sometimes people just fall into very dark places.  And sometimes you cannot outswim the undertow and the darkness makes you do strange, destructive things.  Anybody who tries to blame the movie is just talking out of his ass.  It's so unfortunate that The Dark Knight series will now carry both the unfortunate legacies of the death of Heath Ledger and the Aurora killings.  As a movie, TDKR is a very satisfying conclusion to the best superhero movies ever made.  I didn't even mind Anne Hathaway as much as I thought I was going to (she's still no Michelle Pfeiffer - sigh).  My only complaint really is Bane.  I usually love Tom Hardy, but he was totally wasted here in a role where his face is pretty much covered and you cannot understand a word he says. (I cannot wait for the blu ray to turn on the subtitle on Bane's dialogues, although I doubt that would make him any more interesting of a villain.  Ah, the big shadow of Heath Ledger's Joker looms.)  As usual, Christian Bale, Michael Caine, Morgan Freeman, and Gary Oldman are solid and form TDKR's emotional core.  Joseph Gordon Levitt plays a pivotal role, especially in the ending.  Actually the ending makes me wish Christopher Nolan will just keep making Batman forever (nooo, not Batman Forever, but Batman movies forever).