give up

Ok so if you are reading this, it means you have not given up on me (or you are just a random stranger - which is cool too).  I appreciate you not giving up on me, especially since I make it easy for people to give up on me.  I don't give people a lot to work with, I know.

But here I am.  Rebooted.  I would not go so far as to say I am re-energized, but just willing to resume this and give it another go.  After coming back from Ireland, it was hard to get back into things.  Anything.  It's close to a month now, and I still feel out of it.  Not sure why.  I think I am going through one of those phases where I am all mopey and depressed.  (Phases?  You say.  Were you ever not mopey and depressed? Whatevs.  Eat my shorts.)  I mean, like I seriously have disdain for everything.  I barely want to talk to people.  When I do, it's forced and faked.  Nothing genuine.  Lord knows I haven't picked up the phone to call anyone for realz lately, other than for work or for doctors appointments.  It's just that I haven't anything to say.  Or anything I want to say out loud to anyone.  But anyways, it's almost October.  We are headed into the holidays.  I should try to reboot things and see what happens.  I mean, nothing drastic.  Just get back into doodling, exercising, eating good food, anticipating the new tv season and the fall Oscar-aspiring movies, writing, porn, starting a revolution of love, stuff like that.

I'll write about Ireland soon.  And the new tv shows.  Course Amazing Race is premiering this Sunday, so there is always that.  And the buzz surrounding 12 Years A Slave and Sandra Bullock's Gravity is pretty exciting.  Oh even though I swore off shopping for a while, I did just buy five sweatshirts from Old Navy cuz they are cheap and fit well.  I figure I could always use sweatshirts.  That's what mopey and depressed people wear.  I did get them in different colors though, which is not what mopey and depressed people do.  They are not bright colors or anything, but I went for variety, which means I am not totally a lost cause.  Yeah, there is hope for me yet.  I also bought the first two seasons of Happy Endings on dvd.  Both for under $20.  I love Happy Endings.

Again, thank you for coming back, the two or three of you out there.  You rock.  You are awesome because you don't give up on people.  People who give up on people suck. People who give up on themselves worse.